I am anxiously counting down to the most selfish thing I have ever done.
I have recently signed up and paid to do the most selfish thing I have ever done. I am having plastic surgery.
I am very excited and suffering from guilt. Over the past two years, I have lost (and kept off) 150 pounds. I feel amazing. I didn’t realize what a shell of a life I was living. I only realized that I needed to do something one night when I was woken up with left arm pain and shortness of breath. I thought I was having a heart attack. How could I be having a heart attack when I had two small children at home? I had to live. I had to raise them. I had to see them grow. I had to be there to cheer on their successes and offer hope on their failures. I had to be there to be their mommy.
So my journey began. I worked hard. I started exercising. I ate right. I did it. I am not where I want to be but I have lost over 150 pounds. I am able to play with my kids. I have done a 10k. I can actually wear clothes without getting bruises and cuts. I can walk up stairs without getting winded. I can sit in a movie theater seat without having the arm rest bruise my hips. But my weight loss has also led to new challenges.
I had lots of extra skin. I had a stomach apron and huge thighs. I have always had huge thighs. I accepted it as just being part of me. But seriously, they were huge, ugly tree trunks. I hate them. I don’t wear shorts and haven’t in years because of them. I will say it again…I HATE MY THIGHS. I have always struggled to find clothes that would fit my thighs. I thought it would be easier to find clothes when I lost weight. It has become easier to a certain degree but still need different sizes for my waist and thighs. I seriously live in leggings because they are the only clothes that fit me all over.
So I decided to do something about them. I am having plastic surgery. This is this is the most selfish thing I have EVER done. The thighplasty I have signed up for will remove the extra skin from my thighs.
I am very nervous but super excited. I do not take any decision to have surgery lightly. HUGE amounts of research has been done. I have read too many horror stories about this, watched the videos, and looked at the pictures. My eyes are wide open as I go into this surgery.And I have STILL decided (and paid for) my surgery. And my surgery date is quickly approaching.
So come with me as a share my surgery journey with you. There will be pictures. There will be some raw emotion shared. There hopefully won’t be any pain medicine filled posts. (No one needs that nonsense although I am funny).
Congrats on your awesome weight loss! That is a monumental victory! And you have managed to keep it off! When I was younger, as difficult as weight loss was, the challenge was keeping it off. I always gained it back and more. You have been taking care of yourself and your family too. You deserve to splurge on this if you are able and it is something you want to do. I’m excited you will be sharing your journey. I don’t know anyone who has had that kind of plastic surgery. I’ll be following you along the way!